darkness and light

I am living a dream everyday,
I am living a fear everyday
I am living a desire everyday

Dream of finding the reason for my fear,
Fear for that dream so that it doesn’t break
And the desire to awaken with a light not shadowed by darkness

I am living a hope everyday
I am living a smile everyday
I am living my tears everyday

Hope that someday embraced by the light of an answer I shall face the blackness
Smile as any other expression makes me look… true
Tears as they are closest when darkness envelops my solitude

I am helpless, so tied and bound, bound by the freedom I have
My hands are trembling, as they are open, desirous of much more.
My mind is forever enclosed by the horizon, by the magnanimity of the world
Where oh! Lord shall I fall
As the light blinds my vision and the darkness makes me see things I don’t want to.

As a child I wander smitten by the glitter of the fake
As an aged I am spelled by the speed of what I can’t hold

Everyday I live a dream only to wake up and fear of it being granted to me
Everyday I desire so much for others, hoping I too am honored by the same
I relive a new drama now, drama of selfishness

I desire for me
I live for a hope
I live not for u but for a enchanting divinity that only I can embrace
I live as if I am the world and I am the absolute
Because it’s only the power of having seen and lived in the dark
That one begins to perceive truth in light

a promise kept

Washed away ashore, a leaf fallen from a dying tree in an abandoned forest,

It had dreamt of becoming a flower one day, dreamt of a blissful paradise.

It had seen a million storms , was bitten by the sharpest teeth, was drenched in soul drenching rain,

It held on , in the hope for the sun . held on in the hope for serenity

The sun came , and the leaf smiled like it had never before smiled and spread out to reach the warmth,

It embraced the horizons and the dream in his serene eyes was now beginning to breath.

Fate had a different story to tell, the leaf in his ardor and hunger broke away from his roots and fell.

Fell and his entire life was now slipping away into oblivion. Darkness was engulfing his existence and he fell.

The air kissed his soft dreamy eyes and softly lay him in the lap of the river ,which like a mother stroke his head and sang him to sleep

In his sleep the river washed him and purified him for his journey as now he was to be reborn.

The sand picked up the leaf. Waited till every dream of freedom had melted away and every hope had been erased.

Lifeless it lay on the sand, watched by the universe, the air , water, wind …

Boulevard of shattered hopes and dreams,

The sand slowly dissolved the leaf into its world , with a promise of a rebirth .

The promise that is never broken ..never forgotton

Another leaf is born on the dying tree….. another dream creeps into opening eyes

Only to be washed away to the shore again …..a promise always kept